Wednesday, August 3, 2011

How do you deal with anger?

It has come to my attention that there are certain things I need to reexamine in my life. A big thing I have been dealing with the past few years has been about how to deal with someone who angers you/hurts your feelings. Many people have said to just ignore it and go on with your day. Well, that can last for just so long. One day, all the built up frustration will burst. And that is kinda what has happened.... I'm trying to reach a balance, but along the way, I'm still trying to figure out the best way to approach the situation.

When is it okay to feel the anger and let that person know it really makes you angry/hurts you?

I want to have a gentle and quiet spirit, but lately it's been difficult. People have told me that anger is wrong. Hearing that for so long and brushing my thoughts under the carpet isn't working anymore.... Anger is a real emotion and it's okay to show it (in an appropriate way).

What do you think?
(*don't freak out about posting your opinion/thoughts... i'm really looking for some honest, caring feedback)

Thursday, June 9, 2011

My Dream:: My vision:: My Hopes

Do you have something that you are absolutely passionate about?
Something that if you did not have in your life then you would feel incomplete?

Some people go through life wondering...waiting...for that moment when they can figure out their place in this world. Sometimes we have to go through years of figuring it out, or maybe just dapple in a few experiences to have it dawn on us.

I have been one of the lucky ones. It didn't take me long to figure out where God's hand was directing me. My career passion has always been geared towards education. For seven years, I have been diligently putting myself in situations so I can gain more teaching experience. My passion is to teach children so they can glean useful information from life. It thrills me to see "lightbulbs" click on when a student finally understands something. Even though teaching can be quite demanding, I can not see myself doing anything else in life. It's my niche. It's where I belong.

For the last few months, it has dawned on me that passion isn't everything. Even though I'm passionate about teaching, it's some hard times we come from. The timing of when I graduated was smack dab in the middle of the economy seeing troubling times. If I had graduated one year earlier, I would already have a classroom... all my teacher friends got a job then. But life is uncertain and maybe there's a reason why I'm one year too late.

I recently read, "Oh the Places You'll Go!" to fifth grade students. Even though it's a children's book, it's very relevant to my life at 25 years old. If you've ever read it, I feel like I'm in the "waiting place". The place where you just wait for things to happen. Sometimes parts of life can be a waiting game, and am slowly realizing that this can be a good thing. If I had gotten a position right out of college, I may have burnt out pretty fast.

My hope and wish is that everyone can live out their dreams. I'm lucky because while I wait for this wish (teaching) to come true, I can do the most important thing in my life ever--be the best mommy to my son.